yeah i think you are right, although i prefer learn it from other people, i just dont want more troubles

yeah i prefer home workout since its expensive and far away. hope it will helps, thanks.

i think thats part of my problem, i dont really like myself tbh, i done lot of mistakes to the point its hard to love yourself.

yes i know i am not alone, but still the thoughts of having those mistakes and burden is really exhausting.

i done lot of stuff until now, but i still remember those mistakes i did decades ago.

yes it did make better decision but if it makes me having anxiety disorder, i prefer to forget it.

yeah i dont think i can do that, i prefer playing safe.

thats amazing comeback, and i am glad that you able to do better at new job

unfortunately some of mistakes has lasting effects to society, as example you done a mistakes that ended up destroyed trust of your career or relationship, your reputation hurts everytime you gonna start over.

people already label you as bad person due to your past mistakes.

well i am not neurodivergent, i did talked to my therapist and he gives me medication to help me sleep.

unfortunately i live in middle of busy city with no nearby forest or even park, its all just buildings with pollution everywhere.

unfortunately lot of stuff happens even with careful planning, its like destined to be doomed. learned from experiences.

yeah cannot blame you, job market is actually pretty bad right now.

wow two separate accident and no injury, we can say it is lucky in some point?

most of your problem can be resolved once you got better career for sure.

on third degree burn, you dont even feel pain anymore, its numb and actually dangerous because it means all the skin is dead and thats why it have to be operated immediately because it has high risk of infection. also it will leave scars for sure.

i just dont really like massage especially head area, since it cause my head to be sore and tense like rigid to the point i having hard time to relax and sleep. i even almost want to come back to that barbershop for complaint but my family stopped me saying im just looking for another trouble if i done that and its partly my mistake not to stop the barber for massage when its too hurt.

but on same day, around midnight, a random lizard just fell on my body and i have to take a bath because of that. i think at this point i can say i am cursed or something, its not normal for being this unlucky.

yeah relationship takes time, and its hard to maintain them, for me i lost several friends i known for years for no reasons, i just found that i am already unfriended on my social media by them and for me, i just move on because its their choice after all.

well i suprised you still able to zoom out, considering how much things happened to you.

well at least it doesnt impact you directly, at least not physically and considering 33 years of life, thats not so bad compared to what happens to me in just this year.

yeah i think we are cursed or something that it keeps happening

dont worry its not about unlucky, job market is pretty bad right now even for master degree struggles.

the burn is on both of my hands, it is been operated so should be fine i suppose but i dont hope much for compensation since usually hospital wont want to compensate you unless you use lawyer which most likely difficult and costly so aint worth it so yeah what a terrible luck and it doesnt stop there.

just today i go to barbershop and the barber somehow massage my head too strong, now my head is going tense for awhile. i am frustated that even doing simple thing like haircut causes me another trouble and trouble seems to like and find me non stop, what i know is i wont coming back to that barbershop anymore and i feel that going outside is so scary that i prefer staying in my room all time.

thats unfortunate that your meeting doesnt work well but yeah there is always next time, you can arrange another meetup if it is possible. yeah thats how cruel life is, they doesnt even care about us at all.

hi there, i just back from another life trouble, really unlucky situation. recently i got third degree burn because of hospital physical theraphy machine and i was hospitalized and operated at same hospital, and have to complaint to the hospital, handle all the process, and rest for 8 days because of it and i still havent got any compensation from them except the medical fee.

life really cruel, isn’t it? i recently lost my hardwork and income just last month and early this month, another trouble happens again, i feel so tired with my life honestly.

i read your story, and i can say that all the good life for 8 years you once had ruined in just 3 years, i am amazed that you still able to survive despite of the nonstop troubles. i cannot imagine if i am in your position, i might be given up already.

yeah i hope i can do this, thanks for info.