I find opiates kinda boring tbh, and while they can be euphoric (sorta mixed for me) they can also make me feel sorta ill, so I don’t really like to take them.

When I was depressed, though, that was a dangerous drug because I had so little “happiness” and it felt like a special treat - so I could see it being very dangerous if I didn’t have other sources of happiness / mental well-being.

So glad you got that corner room and you had a good experience, that is such great luck and so heart-warming.

Also probably worth mentioning that recreational drug use of heroin is probably dosing more than the hospital is giving, if I had to guess - so stronger euphoria, but also stronger depressant effects, etc., so I’m not sure how accurate your hospital experience was to what recreational users are experiencing.