You should talk to a therapist. Your post history is consistent in going between wanting to go your own way and dealing with your parents because you’re financially dependent on them due to being on SSI. All the question posts are just bordering on procrastination.

I think i want to earn money to gain experience but i also dont feel ready for a job?

This is what I mean. You’ll never feel “ready” for a job until you get one. No matter where you are there will likely be low skill, low barrier to entry jobs going. They’re shit, they pay fuck all but they’ll pay more than SSI. More importantly you’ll learn some important skills. Namely being accountable to people who aren’t related to you. You’ll probably appreciate the additional income. You’ll probably lose the job because out in the real world you’ll quickly learn that people will only accept excuses for things a few times until they realise it’s a recurring thing.

You’ll then realise “oh shit, not being entirely broke all the time is pretty good actually” and then you can look towards upskilling and/or going back to school. Move out of your parents and let them worry about their hobby~jobs and messy house. Start worrying about your own life. More importantly start doing shit, fucking it up and learning from it. Anyone who told you they immediately knew what they were going to do with their life and didn’t make any mistakes as a young adult is lying or had a trust fund.