I’m lonely and hate myself, and I hate myself too much to move towards not being lonely.

Also I’m in the Navy, and I work insane hours.

Why should I be?

Dunno

I suffer with self confidence and consider myself forgettable

Almost every issue I have right now goes back to billionaires, fascism, or capitalism.

Because 46 and lost remote job, and after working a year from home dread having to go into work. Especially with gas what it is and I live in shit hole state with no public transportation. Add to the fact that I must try find work in this economy while dealing with ageism. Just fucking hate this shit.

just found out my boyfriend of nearly 9 years has been emotionally cheating on me for the last 3 months, thanks to a drunken slip-up. what’s funny is it would’ve been fine if it was just sex, but no… boundaries had to be tested.

I miss happiness

I am happy, but thanks for the check-in.

I don’t really have any complaints, I’m just not a very happy person

At this point I can only blame my broken brain.

Mostly I am happy - I don’t think it really has that much to do with my circumstances, which now are relatively cushy, just a lucky quirk of biology. I have been reasonably happy when homeless, I do get anxious but not depressed, just not how my brain works.

So please never blame yourself if you are unhappy, it can be the other side of the same coin. I do think satisfaction, the ability to be satisfied is a life skill, but happiness vs. sadness, some of that is biological.

Nothing works as it was explained to me how it should. Now everything has ever changing rules and the points don’t matter.

I literally can’t figure out why. I have a stable living situation, decent income, a loving long-term partner and no health concerns. I don’t think I remember the last time I genuinely felt happy. There’s short-term excitement or giddyness sometimes, but that lasting, calming presence of actual happiness has been missing for a while.

If I knew that I would probably be q lot happier.

I would say it’s because of capitalism but the truth is that my poor health is the real reason for my unhappiness. If I had better health I would fight against capitalism through activism as I did in the past. That would make me happy, at least.