Stop looking at social media every minute. It is brutal.

I think you are doing great

omg you’re gonna be quadlingual? and you made it through a diet?? you go!

First of all: you’re not a loser.
I want that out of the way, because it’s an unhealthy and unproductive way of thinking.

Could you be a better version of yourself?
Yes. But so could everybody else in the entire world, and it is what the people you envy/look up to work towards every day.
The thing is that very few people are good at everything. Most are good at a few, and we humans tend to want to excell at things and compare ourselves to the people we know who are better than us.

You probably, and very normally I might add, compare yourself to Mike on guitar, John on physical form, Jessica on career and Brian on maturity, and then feel down. The problem is, that they are better at these things than you are, but not everything else.

So since you asked for it, I’ll give you my advice: Stop comparing yourself to the peak of others, and try turning it into admiration for what they have achieved. And let them know they inspire you!
Then start focusing on one thing: being at least as good as yourself yesterday/last week/last month.

You know more, are more mature, lost weight (congrats!), so you’re gaining points by just existing.
And force yourself to do stuff. Go swim again. Alone if you must. Go see a movie alone. Get comfortable in the uncomfortable.

Right now you are your worst enemy, while you should be your own biggest fan. That comes from confidence and experience in pushing yourself to actually live life.

And let yourself have days where you watch Youtube. That doesn’t make you a failure. It makes you human.

Good luck!

Do things with people, whether it’s volunteering, a social group, whatever. Very few of us are happy without at least some social interaction, and sense of community.

Maybe for you that means to speak the languages you’re learning with other people, or join a discussion group for a topic you’re studying. But having the things you do personally anchored in a shared social reality adds a human element that studying more things and doing independent things that are academically good for you just can’t.

It sounds to me like you already are doing plenty of things or planning to, so I’ll tell you something that was said to me by a therapist once:

It sounds like you’re looking at your self worth conditionally. You need to do X, then you’ll be Y. The thing is, that’s a journey with no end. You’ll always find something else you don’t have if you think of yourself this way.

You need to work on unconditional self worth. How can you give yourself grace on the days when you just sit around and watch YouTube videos? Are you really worthless if you never learn an instrument?

This may not vibe with you, but one technique I’ve been told is to think of your child self. Imagine this little girl or boy you used to be standing in front of you. They feel horrible because they haven’t done this or that. Would you chastise them for it? Or would you pick them up and give them a hug? They’re trying, and that’s what matters, even if they don’t get exactly where they want in the end.

So to sum it up, your self worth is conditional, and you need to find ways to treat yourself well more unconditionally. The more you can do that, the more confident you’ll feel, regardless of what else is happening in life.

Best of luck with this. I have struggled with similar things and still do sometimes. It takes work to change your thinking, and it won’t be linear gains.

I mean im a lot like you but also bad at language. Everyone I think feels at some point that what they do is nothing special and there are all sorts of things they should be doing. Personally I get kinda annoyed with what I feel is bs that the modern world sorta dumps on us. I very much enjoy just being and as I get older I more and more want to just do that. What I feel like at the moment. Unfortunately responsibilities and crap.

I try to have one athletic/health, one artistic, and one academic thing going. Some things I get bored with and replace pretty quickly, some last a really long time.

Gym with weights is boring? Cool, tried it, not for you, go find some other physical thing to try. Give it a go, keep at it or try yet another new thing.

I sometimes say my hobby is trying hobbies. I go into group classes and clubs with that mindset. It helped me to stop feeling like a newbie loser not as proficient as the people around me, because I’m literally there to be new. People know me for that character trait. And someday soon I will be new at another thing, and another, and another.

And I don’t wait to do new things with friends. It’s a 1000-year event, getting schedules to align across several busy adults.

Sorry you’re feeling this way. Something almost everybody struggles with is comparing yourself to others. I’d think about how past you might feel about you today after health and educational goals. Nice job! You should be proud of yourself.

Next, think about what makes somebody a loser and if you were evaluating somebody else in your exact same position would you think they’re a loser? There are two pieces here:

1. If you don’t think they’re a loser, why do you think you are?
2. Who are you or anybody else to judge who is a loser?

Lastly, there is no reason why you should not be setting goals for yourself for the things that you feel you are falling behind on (e.g. learning an instrument), but ask yourself why you haven’t taken your friend up on their offer to borrow the guitar? Is it because you really don’t want to play guitar and just think it’s something non-losers do? Maybe something else or a bit of both.

A. You’re not a loser
B. Don’t compare yourself to others
C. If you want to do something, do it, and if you don’t stick with it, figure out why not.

Good luck! You’re a rockstar!

The hardest part it’s starting. You can do it but you have to do it. Nobody here will be able to help you more, I guess