@Adniem i guess accepting while i may not be wrong, i do not execute my position effectively.

and a bit realizing as long as i am up front with my issues… its way better

and always be open to be wrong

I jerk off and smoke weed way to much

Loving parents and growing up in a small town, a 10 year failed marriage that resulted in 3 kids I love to the moon of which 2 of them are on the spectrum. Many failed relationships.

I’m proud of the man I’ve become at 49 years old.

Found computers very interesting. Broke them. Watched how to fix them. Broke them again. Fixed them myself. Rinse and repeat.

Education, martial arts training, books, and video games.

Trauma 🙂

It’s two-sided.

On one hand, I was raised by a forest ranger to hunt and fish and camp, spent my childhood in the boy scouts learning all that stuff, and brought up in strict, yet community-oriented religion.

On the other hand, I spent every other waking moment on the computer. I was essentially raised by the web circa 1995-2004. I was exposed to so many different viewpoints then. The web wasn’t nearly as insular then as it is now. You’d have forums where everyone spoke to each other. I learned to question my religion and eventually found my way out. I rejected all the right-leaning beliefs I was raised to have.

And yet, I wouldn’t trade that first part of my childhood, because it was genuinely a nice childhood. I saw what real community can be, something that I now lack. I picked up a thing or two about how to be a moral and capable person along the way. And gained lifelong friendships.

16 years of child abuse 🤪

My dad sketched while I was a kid and I liked how it looked so I tried to copy it. Ever since then, I’ve been drawing and I love it

A lifetime of neglect surrounded by people who told me they were only neglecting me because that was the kind of love that I needed.

Probably undiagnosed mental illness. I spent 30+ years as a round peg trying to fit in a square hole, until I realized one day that the way I like to be is fine and I should enjoy an existence that fits me.

I was born with an opinion of right and wrong.

SNRIs

Shitty childhood. On the upside I learned a lot of useful skills, namely how to tell when someone’s getting ready to hit someone. Comes in handy in my line of work. There’s been plenty of times where the patient starts screaming and my coworkers are like “oh no what do we do!?” And I’m like “wait 30 more minutes for the haldol I gave them 30 minutes ago to hit. They can holler until then if they need to.” Sometimes I just look at the way someone’s pacing and how hard and fast their steps are and my brain just goes “hell naw” and usually if I catch it then the person still has enough sense to take a pill for it.

Being lied to